Bas ek Lamhe ka Jhagda

Bas ek lamahe ka jhagda tha....
dar-o-deevaar par aise chhanaake se giree aavaaj
jaise kaanch girata hai...
har ek shay me gee, udatee huee, jalatee huee,
najar me, baat me, lahaje me
soch aur saans ke andar
lahoo hona tha ek rishte ka, so vo ho gaya us din
usee aavaaj ke Tukade utha kar farsh se us shab
kisee ne kaat lee nabje
na kee aavaaj tak kuchh bhee
ki koee jaag na jae
bas ek lamahe ka zagada tha........

~By Gulzar

Itni Jaldi kyo hai bhai...?

The moment tyres hit the strip with a slight thud , bouncing off the ground a couple of times. The pressure of the air against its extended wings soon slows it down . It glides slowly on the strip , making a couple of lazy turns while some lady on the announcement thanks you for flying with them even though they made you wait whole night at the airport and tells you the temperature outside is way too low than you hope it is . Now the plane stops down . And then , the interesting part starts..

People jump off their seats , brushing their bottoms against each other faces . Uff . Excuse me . Watch it. Will you please pull off your suitcase off my toe ? Pulling open the flaps over their heads . Switching on their cellphones . Someone yells "What ? You havent sent the car ? What the hell! waise sach yeh hota hai.. inhone kabhi car laane ko bola hi nahi hota... bas aise hi tashan maarte hai". Lalu koi or naya ghotala kare us se pehle most of the people stand scrunched in the aisle , all forming an unstructured queue, looking with tense eyes towards the end of the plane , wondering why the doors aint opened yet.

I still lie pushed down in my seat , Or mast gaane mere kaan main ghul rahe hai.. (Main Jaha Rahu, Chahiye to bol dena. I hate piracy , starting tommorow)

watching people stand on each other's feet , I wonder , jaldi kya hai yaar ? This plane blows up in three minutes ?? aisa hai to jadli batao yaar.. hum shyaad kuch madad hi kar de aapki..

So many people are in so much hurry . That guy in a Yamha R15 (Note kiya jaaye hume bhi chahiye yeh bike) behind my office bus who is honking is in a hurry to get to his office ( Yaar overtake karte hue gaali kyun deta hai ? Accha hindi ki gaali to mat de ) . Students are in a hurry to read their chapters before they face the exams . My boss is in a hurry to get that report. People at the boarding gate are in a hurry to get onto the plane . When it lands , they are in a hurry to get out of it. Everybody is in a hurry to get somewhere . Few people want to stay in the moment they are in.

Now I don't know . Maybe these guys know where they want to get to, Hume to aaj tak pata nahi chala ki jaana kaha hai.. Chalo koi to hai mere bharat mahan main jo jaanta hai ki woh kaha jaa raha hai or kya kar raha hai. You see , driven , focussed people. Achievers . Desh ko aage badane wale log. Maybe I am just a slow guy who likes to listen to music and type down words which interest nobody while the world around me reaches for the stars . You see , I don't have a problem with the 'wanting to achieve things' thing . Even I want to achieve things , even if they are a Allu Tikki burger with cheese , and a TV remote , and someone who shares all that with me.

But what I don't understand is that why hurry ? Jaldi kya hai . Kidhar jaana hai ? I mean , life is not in the future . Life is now . This moment .I mean , it's like..

When I was in school , people told me happiness is getting first class in board exams. When I got those First class (Gir pad kar hi aaye they) , they told me happiness was getting into a top engineering college. I know yeha kismat ne saath nahi diya... Neeche se TOP engineering collge main admission mil gaya , Then they told me that happiness is definitely getting into some MNC and earning a salary which is in six figures. Pakka . Sachi . Muchi. Confirmed. Arre 100% happiness yehi hai . USA mein researchers bhee yehi kehte hai.

Now When I have done that , happiness is ? Hello ! What is it nowwww ? Bol do Kaake . Kidhar jaana hai ab ?

So ladiesh and gentlemans , now that the world has been telling me what to do , this is what I have learnt - all the above stuff is important , but happiness is something they dont need to tell you about. It is something you feel . And only you decide what makes you happy . When others don't know where you want to be , how can they tell you how to get there ?

Like , for me , happiness is..

On a lazy Sunday , I watch a Moive on Inox, eat a full lunch with friends, and a long drive kisi ki bhi car main Taxi bhi chalegi yaar..

When dad asks me to take a bath and I put my arm around his shoulders and say "Chill, Pa.Do dinn hee to hue hai."

When I say stupid things to someone who would not think "Huh? Isko problem kya hai?."

Sitting in my balcony on a December morning and takeing sip of a garma garm chai.

Talking to someone who understands me, and accepts me even when I am all boring .

Caring for someone I want to care for.

Meeting a bunch of friends over a couple of huge pizzas and crack pathetic jokes about our college professors and why worst guys get the best girls (Haa yeh mera fav topic hai).

Happiness is just, being me .

So you see , what makes me happy is stuff I have not achieved, but stuff, which I already have, had all the way along . So I know I need to achieve things, but hey, there is no hurry .Because I need to achieve things to survive, but to be happy, not much is needed . Some music and a Tikki burger, with cheese, will do just fine for now...

Virgo..

Virgo is one of the most complex and intriguing of the constellations and Virgos are some of the most complex and interesting people. Virgo energy is female energy, whether you’re a male or a female and is the only female symbol in the zodiac. Whether human, animal or inanimate, all symbols represent male energy, apart from Virgo, so Virgo stands alone, the only sign that represents female energy and because of that she embodies aspects of all the goddesses.

Do you believe in all this...?? ya i know few people trust on this... Me too virgo but some how i feel that i never behave like a typical virgo...

My maximum friends and relatives are virgo only... but non of us behaves in same manner.. I have a doubt that if we all are virgo then there should be some common thing between US... but we are not at all same not even a single thing common between us...

Even my three cousin born on the same day including me... per hum teeno ek dusare ke just oppsite hai..

There is one more fact that people use to say ... that..

"Demeter is the Earth Goddess, or Earth Mother and this is the goddess of Virgo, so Virgo encompasses the Earth Mother in all of us. Virgos are very in tune with the cycle of nature and growing things and are very focused on the cycle of life."

There are hell lot of nice thing u can find on net about virgo... but in genral there are hell lot of people are on earth who hates virgo.. even i hate virog.. noting wrong abt this... I am a indian or as a indian i have freedom of thoghts... i can love any one(hehe.. kitni pyari feelig hai.lol), i can hate any one.. haa haa .. juth nahi bol raha hu..:-)

dont know what ever written on net or i heard abt virgo its all right or totally wrong but, i have a strong feeling that i am no where belong to this sun sign... apart from one quality that i love to pointing out the mistakes.. i dont have any other quality of this sun sign.. but i want to be like a virgo.. nway it dosnt make much difference for me...

Some might say that Virgos are too fussy, but without their organisation and ‘mothering’ ways, we’d all be worse off. They just need to watch that they don’t take it to extremes.

No baat only bakwas..

• I am transforming into a workaholic. The types who’s name have taken by default in last cab list. Have taken a total of 1 day off since March 2009. Monday is no more a scary day. I send out office mails almost every Sunday. Two weeks ago, sent a mail to Lead at 1.50 am . He stamped into my cabin next morning and insisted that I get a girlfriend. Not that I want to be on the cover of Time. But I like working.

• I regret not helping a fresher who wanted me to refer his CV to HR. I said I will help out, then totally lost track of that. If they had a record for the number of promises broken, my picture would be in the Guiness Book. Front cover. Full color.

• I have stopped using my Mp3 player. I like the radio more. More unpredictable. More talkative. And cheaper than an iPod.

• Why does everybody in the conference room laugh when the big boss cracks an intended joke? I did not find it funny. A Atal bihari vajpay’s speech is more funny than his joke was . But the guy on my left slapped the table twice and roared. Another one could not stop giggling for a complete forty seconds. I mean, was it in the terms and agreement when they joined?

• I have stopped drinking cold drinks. I like the tea and fresh lime soda more. More tasty. More refreshing. And cheaper than an soft drink.

• So much involved in my current project that even in sleeping mode some time i use to finding the solution for all the pending issues...

• Four year of corporate world. And I am almost into the habit of thinking in bullets. I think you have an idea of that.

Bangalore Rocks

September 2004. Bangalore City railway station, around 3PM thinking what next?
That was just a beginning, after that a long struggle for a nice job started. That’s how I started

New phase of my life at Bangalore..
Not a single hindi movies in Theater,
Not a single sign board on bus in English or hindi
Food problem
Far away with all friends n family
Even though in first look itself I started liking the city and specially the awesome weather… almost daily I used to drenched in rain..

Long line in walk-in
Fake walk- in information
Lathi Charge by Police in walk- ins
Rejection from most of the company
Evan though I had a faith in the Bangalore

Traffic problem
For house rent u have to pay 12 months rent in advance
Cook takes leave twice in a week
And u never know when maid will take leave (even she tells every thing but u never understand what the hell she want to explain)
“H” will come by default just after “t” in almost every name.
But life was rocking as it was never before.

But that time I didn’t knew that my stay will be so long at this place. After 4 and half year unfortunately I have moved to NCR..
But whenever I heard this name Bangalore only.. sweet memories comes in the picture..
Those rain drops..
Only two stupid (me and nitin) were playing Holi on the road like monkeys and all other watching that what the crap these two are doing..
Jumping from bus to avoid the long walk from stop
Late night walk to airport for tea..

Enjoying Full day Tamil songs and movies… because my room mate was Tamilian
Roaming to Hyderabad or Chennai on weekends…for interviews..
Har din kuch naya… koi naya panga .. Varun se bekar ki baker… sachin ko phone ke naam pe pereshaan karma… Vikrant sir ke joks or mast anda bhurji.. happy ke haath ki chai.. DK ke PJ.. Ashok ki gyan bhari baatein… Body ki dole banana ke 50 aasan step… lachu bhai ki nasiyat… shankar ke saath har week ek moive dekhna.. who bhi INOX main… after all sound matters…life was rocking… so many live concert.. Cricket ho to live ..Chinnaswamy stadium even for test match also..

MG road…. Awesome… church street… Rocking.. 100ft road… kewl… kormangala… fundu..
Each place has own importance…in order to spend time …
Full night party in b2 .. second’s main trip ko plan karma…
Raste bhar jay-pee per jokes banana.. … list is too long… each n every moment that I spent there has lot meaning for me….
So only one line that describes it …”Bangalore Rocks”

Pithal Aur Pathal

As I am Rajasthan board pass out, Pithal Aur Pathal was in my syllabus, but it has lot meaning for me other then just a syllabus.. I think not only for me for every Rajput.

Arai ghas ri roti hi jad ban bilavado le bhagyo.

nanho so amaryo chikh padyo rana ro soyo dukh jagyo.

hoon ladyo ghano hoon sahyo ghano

mevadi man bachavan nai,

hoon pachh nahin rakhi ran men

bairyan ro khoon bahavan men,

jad yad karoon haladi ghati nainan men ragat utar aavai,

sukh dukh ro sathi chetakado sooti si hook jaga jyavai,

pan aaj bilakhato dekhoon hoon

jad raj kanvar nai roti nai,

to kshatra-dharam nai bhooloon hoon

bhooloon hindavani choti nai

main’lan men chhappan bhog jaka manavar binan karata koni,

sonai ri thalyan nilam rai bajot binan dharata koni,

ai hay jaka karata pagalya

foolan ri kanvalai sejan par,

bai aaj rulaai bhookha tisiya

hindavanai sooraj ra tabar,

aa soch huee do took tadk rana ri bhim bajar chhati,

aankhyan men aansoo bhar bolya main likh syoon akabar nai pati,

pan likhoon kiyan jad dekhai hai aadavalooncho hiyo liyan,

chitaud khadyo hai magaran men vikaralbhoot si liyan chhiyan,

main jhukoon kiyan ? hai aan manain

kulra kesariya banan ri,

main bujhoon kiyan ? hoon ses lapat

aajadi rai paravanan ri,

pan fer amar ri sun busakyan rana ro hivado bhar aayo,

main manoon hoon dillis tanain samarat sanesho kaivayo.

rana ro kagad banch huyo akabar ro’ sapanoon so sancho,

pan nain karyo bisavas nahin jad banch nai fir banchyo,

kai aaj hinmalao pighalbahyo

kai aaj huyo sooraj sitala,

kai aaj ses ro sir dolyo

aa soch huyo samarat vikala,

bas doot isaro pa bhajyo pithalnai turat bulavan nai,

kiranan ro pithalaa poogyo o sancho bharam mitavan nai,

bin vir bankudai pithal nai

rajapooti gaurav bhari ho,

bo kshatr dharam ro nemi ho

rana ro prem pujari ho,

bairyan rai man ro kanto ho bikanoon poot khararo ho,

rathaud ranan men rato ho bas sagi tej dudharo ho,

aa bat patasya janai ho

dhavan par loon lagavan nai,

pithalnai turat bulayo ho

rana ri har banchavan nai,

mhai bandh liyo hai pithalsun pinjarai men jangalai sher pakad,

o dekh hath ro kagad hai toon dekhan firasi kiyan akad ?

mar doob chalaoo bhar pani men

bas jhootha gal bajavai ho,

pan toot gayo bin rana ro

toon bhat banyo biddavai ho,

main aaj patasya dharati ro mevadi pag pagan men hai,

ab bata manai kin rajavat rai rajapati khoon ragan men hai ?

jand pithal kagad le dekhi

rana ri sagi sainani,

nichai syoon dharati khasak gaee

aankhyan men aayo bhar pani,

pan fer kahi tatakalsanbhalaa bat safa hi jhoothi hai,

rana ri pagh sada oonchi rana ri aan atooti hai.

lyo hukam huvai to likh poochhoon

rana nai kagad rai khatar,

lai poochh bhalanee pithaltoon

aa bat sahi bolyo akabar,

mhe aaj suni hai nahariyo

syalaaan rai sagai sovai lo,

mhe aaj suni hai soorajado

badalri otan khovailo;

mhe aaj suni hai chatagado

dharati ro pani pivai lo,

mhe aaj suni hai hathido kookar ri joonan jivai lo

mhe aaj suni hai thakan khasam ab rand huvaili rajapooti,

mhe aaj suni hai myanan men

talwar raveli ab sooti,

to mhanro hivado kanpai hai moonchhyan ri mod marod gaee,

pithal nai rana likh bhejyo aa bat kathai tak ginan sahi ?

pithalra aakhar padhatan hi

rana ri aankhyan lal huee,

dhikkar manai hoon kayar hoon

nahar ri ek dakal huee,

hoon bhookh maroon hoon pyas maroon

mevad dhara aajad ravai

hoon ghor ujadan men bhatakoon

pan man men man ri yad ravai,

hoon rajapootan ro jayo hoon rajapooti karaj chukaoonla,

o sis padai pan pagh nahi dilli ro man jhukaoonla,

pithal ke khimata badal ri

jo rokai soor ugalai nai,

singhan ri hathalsah levai

ba kookh mili kad syalai nai?

dharati ro pani pivai isi

chatag ri choonch bani koni,

kookar ri joonan jivai isi

hathi ri bat suni koni,

aan hathan men talavar thakan

kun rand kavai hai rajapooti ?

myanan rai badalaai bairyan ri

chhatyan men raivaili sooti,

mevad dhadhakato angaro aandhyan men chamacham chamakai lo,

kadkhai ri uthati tanan par pag pag par khando khadkai lo,

rakho the moonchhyan ainthyodi lohi ri nadi baha dyoonla,

hoon athak ladoonla akabar syoonujadyo mevad basa dyoonla,

jad rana ro sandesh gayo pithalri chhati dooni hi,

hindavanon sooraj chamakai ho akabar ri duniyan sooni hi.

Vineet.. A chapter of my life !!

"They Never say NO"

Sitting idle in room is always a boring task for me.. Usually i used to call some one whenever i feel bored.. Today i tried same thing just before i started this blog.... but then i realize that ... the cellphone no that i used to dial is still exists but that person is no more.... My frd ..my bro... "Vineet Singh.. The Real soldier"

I met him during engineerg... hmm almost 9 yrs before... And i have lots of good memories with him.. only memories... seriously I never thought that he will go so far that i couldnt afford to call him.. we dont have single pic together..even we never exchange address nor number.. kabhi socha hi nahi tha...ki hum alag bhi hoge...

those 4 yr.. i never forget just because of mamu.. those bunks, funny argument with teacher, silly question in seminar, stupidity in cricket ground and Masti in Mess...
just after the college he got opportunity with Indian Army.. the place where we always wants to go.. but only he got the chance to serve the nation... and he proved himself...

Even though he joined army n moved to kashmir but he never forget to give me a miss call... those days i use to little irritated by those miss call but now i am really missing those miss call...

I know ab kabhi koi miss call nahi aaygi..

November 8th.. when last time i got a call from him... if had a little bit of idia that this will be our last talk... to shaayd main woh call kabhi khatam nahi hone deta...
later i got to know that mine no was the last no that he dialed ... the moment me n sandy heard this news that he is no more... we both took long time to believe this fact....

I know life never stops... per kuch baatein or kuch dosto ki value wahi rahti ...
Missing you mamu...

"live by choice, love by chance, and kill by profession"

About me..

kyon hoon main? pata nahi...
Phir bhi koi wajah to hai...
Manzil ka pata kaun jaane? phir bhi koi jagah to hai...
Kisi se kuchh kaha nahi, phir bhi koi baat hai...
Main bhatakta hoon tanha, phir bhi koi saath hai...
Kya hoon nahi jaanta.. par koi to hoon main...
Jawab na mile to kya, ek sawal to hoon main...

Sawal ?

Usne kaha tum mein pahele jaisi baat nahi.?
Maine kaha zindagi me tere sath nahi............

Usne kaha ab bhi kisi ki aankho me doob sakte ho.?
Maine kaha ab kisi aankh me wo baat nahi.........

Usne kaha kyun itna toot kar chaha mujhe.?
Meine kaha insaan hu pathar .......

usne kaha kya bewafa hoon main.?
Maine kaha muje ab wafa ki talash nahi.........

usne kha bhul jaa mujhe ab.?

Maine Kaha Tum haqiqat ho koi khawab nahi......................